Therapy 1

Ok so like I said this is my update to how my therapy went last night. Well first of all it went really well. It helped me a lot and made me think in a different light. We talked mainly about my depression, which I guess isn't as big a problem for me as it used to be. But it was still great to have it addressed. I'd say about 15-20 minutes in, and I can't for the life of me remember how it came up guess it was just what else is bothering me or something, I was able to tell her that I wanted to start hormones and become a female. It was honestly difficult to say, but it felt a lot better when I was able to get it out. 

She was very great and understanding. She was honored that I was able to come out to her and tell her that. And I am honored that she is willing to help me through this. I was also glad that she was quite younger than her profile made her out to be. I feel she is someone I could make friends with easily and she can really help me in changing. 

Well like I said, we didn't touch too much on the gender change. It was mainly focused on depression and family and friends. She gave me some challenges that I should do to turn around the feelings I have about all that, and I am going to try and do them as best I can. Along with the breathing exercise she taught me and wants me to do 3 times a day. When she taught me the exercise, I felt incredibly relaxed and calmer. And it also made my mind feel a lot lighter. You know that feeling when something is weighing heavy on your mind and your finally able to get it out? That's how I felt. Just made me feel a whole lot better. 

Ok so back to the gender change. My next step in this now is to research around and find a doctor who I can talk with about it. Once I do a couple meetings with them and get the greenlight to start hormones, I'll need a letter of approval from my therapist to go ahead and start the hormones. I don't really want to start them right away, the crucial part of my school semester is coming up, but my hope is that maybe by mid-June I will be able to start. Maybe July. The last couple weeks leading up to the session, I wasn't quite sure if becoming a woman is exactly what I wanted to do, but now I'm 100% sure. I guess it was just getting it off my chest and actually telling somebody that I wanted it. 

I'm fairly certain I'm forgetting something here, but this post is getting a little long. So I'll just stop there. Last thing I want to say is, I really love sports, especially football. So if blogger will allow me, I may create a sports blog at some point. I'll be sure to leave a new post and a link when I get that up and running. Thank you all so much for taking the time to read this! Comments are greatly appreciated!