Psychology

So okay, I just finished up my psychology homework for the week and I have kind of always had the thought, that transwoman may tend to want to be females more if they didn't have a father around. Of course, the strongest argument is that we are born this way, but sometimes the psychological side just makes so much damn sense! 

Anyways, I'm doing this test and up comes the 5 psychosexual stages of Freud. And it goes to say that in the phallic stage children are supposed to repress their feelings for the opposite-sex parent, and start identifying more with the same-sex parent. So for example, boys would take on the mannerisms of the father and want to grow up to be like him. It mentions girls see the the father as the target of affection and the mother as a rival. Kinda gross, but whatever. Anyways, it goes on to say that children without same-sex parents don't have that identification, so boy's typically become "mama's boys" and girls tend to date older men. That's not really what I'm aiming for.

What I'm trying to get at is, is it more likely that a boy who grows up without a father is more likely to identify with the mother and want to dress up in dresses and put on makeup and more likely to be homosexual or transgender? Who knows, but it'd be an interesting thing to study. 

I didn't know it at the time, but now I can say I was supposed to be born a woman. I can recall back to the age of 4. I was alone in the bathroom. I grabbed a ton of toilet paper and stuff into under my shirt and in the back of my pants to give me that sort of female figure. Children can be so sophisticated by the age of 4. I believe that's really when the acknowledgement of "Am I a girl or boy?" appears. Quite honestly, ages 1-3 who cares? Age 1, the baby has no control over anything they do anyways. Age 2, the parent is still doing 95% of the work for them, and age three is sort of the start. 

Now I grew up with family. My aunt used to babysit and there'd always be kids around. I was normal. I never really acted like a girl, but neither as a boy either. Just a child having fun playing tag or making up new games. That's all it was back in those days. Ugh, I'm getting off subject. 

So anyways, I would really like to see a thorough study done on transgenders who grew up without the same-sex parent. It wouldn't conclude anything, but might suggest some things. Who knows. That's all for now folks :)

P.S. I am really liking Tumblr now so I think I will be using it as my primary blog since I can write short blurbs here and there. Wheras here, I feel I need to write about something important ya know? I will be using Tumblr to talk about things I feel worth talking about as well as using Twitter. For this blog, I will pretty much just be using it to update where I'm at in transitioning and talk about my therapy. My Tumblr is ConvertedGirl.Tumblr.Com and my Twitter handle is of course, @ConvertedGirl. Those are not links, so don't try clicking sorry! Thanks!!!

Therapy 8 and Other Goings-On

So, HUGE apology for not using this blog that much lately. School has consumed a lot of my time and other times I just don't have much to talk about. Hopefully though, those of you who do read my blog are following me on twitter so you can get up-to-date a little. Umm, so let's start off with therapy I suppose. 

I did have therapy last Wednesday, the 6th, after not having been for 2 months because of her pregnancy. I kinda felt ripped off a little bit because the person before me ran late with her so we didn't start til about 10 after, and we even ended early. So I only got like 40 minutes instead of 50-60. And a lot of what we talked about was stuff we've already talked about. Which I guess is understandable since we haven't seen each other since September. I dunno, I felt a little ripped off. But nothing I can do about it now. Only thing I regret was not having talked to her again about my letter of recommendation for hormones. I have been trying to get my mom to schedule me for a blood test, she thinks it's just so I can see if I'm healthy. Not true. Well kinda is. Anyways, I am going to be pushing for that more so I can take it to another doctor and talk about hormones. Luckily, there's a medical center not 5 minutes from me that does such a thing :) I did dress up for therapy again, this time more than usual. Or at least I felt that way. But yeah, that's kinda about it :/

If I haven't mentioned it before, I have come out to 2 other family members, my aunt and cousin. Her side of the family is supportive of LGBT and that's nice to have and I knew that beforehand they were open to that side. But anyways, last Friday I got together with my aunt and she helped teach me how to flat iron my hair. She did a really great job and I have pics to share. I'm practicing to do it myself now, it's not going so hot lol. But yeah, next she says she wants to help me wax my eyebrows, and hopefully I can talk her into giving my hair some color to cover up my grey hairs. I might try and talk with her next week since my classes are nearing an end and I won't have nearly as much homework after this week. And if I do, I'll be sure to post pics and write about it :)

So let's see what else is going on. I started back on the treadmill last week after completing the 30-Day Squat challenge in October. That was so tough, but I have noticed an improvement in my butt lol. School is getting stressful, but hitting the end so it won't be so tough. Hmm, I really don't know what else I wanted to talk about. So I'm just gonna throw a couple last item things in here before I get to the pics. 

• I just created a Tumblr site after seeing a friends and it looked much more visually appealing than this blog, so in time I may switch to that as my primary blog. 
• Of course, I'm on Twitter as @ConvertedGirl, feel free to follow me :)
• I have an amazon wishlist now, I'm not begging you to buy me anything, but you'd make a Tgirl very happy and I'd be sure to post pics of course :)http://www.amazon.com/registry/wishlist/1ID72NS691C48/ref=cm_sw_r_tw_ws_p.dHsb0JC96RQ
• You can friend me on Facebook, I'm Rachel Posey on there. Look for the pic with the dolphin :) Just don't leave a bunch of lewd comments or messages. Just trying to be friends, not 'friendly'. 

I think that about wraps it up! So I'll leave you here with a couple pics of my new do. Enjoy! Peace and thanks for reading! :)