Ok so first off, sorry I haven't been posting in a while. Just really didn't have anything new to add. Might not for a while after this either. But I had my 3rd therapy session last night and there was a little bit of trouble beforehand, but that's been cleared up.
She wasn't getting paid by my insurance, and we talked about that through emails the past week. We both made calls to my insurance, and she found out that my deductible was too high so they won't pay her. Even though when I called they said one of the claims was paid. Who knows, maybe eventually they pay her. But she felt it was unfair for me after what we've already gone through to have to start all over. I am very appreciative of that. So if she ever comes across this, Thank you so much! So yeah, I'm only paying $40 per session, but if there comes a time she may need a bit more from me, you bet I'm gonna help out! But okay back to the session.
We started talking about what had been going on since the last time. Thankfully we started off more about me being transgender than the depression. I guess that's because I told her that I had started identifying as a transgender rather than a male. So we talked a lot about that. Mostly about learning about make-up, getting new clothes that I would actually like, and a little bit about what else I could do. It was funny, at one point she said she wished I had an ally to take me shopping around and help me out. I'm sitting there like "why can't that be you?" lol So again, if she ever reads this, Will you be my ally? I really think it would be fantastic! But she's busy I understand that, someday I'll find that ally.
And she also said that she wished that ally was my mom. That was a lot about what we talked about. Like how I would tell her, and that I don't want to just completely shock her. So I now really need to plan on what I'm going to say when that time comes and think about what her reactions may be. Me being the only son of both my mom and dad (they're divorced) it's hard to just come out and say your only son wants to be another daughter. Hell, I'll say this now since really this blog can be accessed by anyone all over the world. Mom, if you ever come across this, there's a lot we need to talk about.
Anyway, she asked at one point if I had another name chosen and I told her Kirstin, even though I'm not 100% set on that yet, and there are still others. But it was nice being called Kirstin out in the open for the first time. And since no one commented on my last post, guess I still gotta do a lot of thinking about my name. Though I liked being called Kirstin, a lot of times, people don't even call me my own name. So it felt kind of awkward being called a name just in general.
Anyway that was actually most of our discussion. We didn't talk a lot more about anything else, and that's because really things are going pretty well for me. I'm all done with school for the semester. Have summer class sometime in July, but for the next few months I'm free. Have a job interview on Monday at Target. I hope I get it because I need money, but I also hope it's not for a stocking job. I don't want to have to work at 4:30 in the morning again. So yeah, just thought I'd let all my readers know I'm doing well. Things are getting a little brighter in my side of the world. Love ya'll and thank you so much for reading :)
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