It's Been Awhile

Hey everyone! No I haven't forgotten about you. Just, I've literally had nothing new to share here. I've been trying to do some new things, but things haven't panned out. For the last 2 weeks I've been trying to get together with my cousin to learn about makeup and do the dress rehearsal my therapist suggested, but everytime I ask her, she ignores the question. Like it's okay if you can't do something, but tell me you can't do it. Don't ignore the question! So anyways, that's been a little frustrating. On Wednesday the 24th, I went over to my cousin's (My other cousin's brother) and tried to tell him and their mom. But when I got there, my female cousins daughter was there with my aunt, so that threw me off guard and I couldn't say anything. Then when my cousin got there, we went out to the pool to just talk pretty much, and the topic never really came up. But then again, that's an odd subject to come up in the first place lol. But when we ran out of things to say and I felt more confident to say it, his girlfriend and her friend show up and I was just totally screwed at that point. Even though his girlfriend has a female-to-male transgender friend. Heck, maybe I'd even feel better telling his girlfriend first. But anyways, I am going to try and meet up with him again sometime and hopefully tell him then. 

So let's see. What else can I talk about here? For the most part, since my last post I've just been trying to keep busy. I'm not interested in tv anymore. More so into music. Been keeping up with school, however this next week is the final week. Actually could finish that up today if I really wanted to. And I've pretty much just been talking with friends and whatnot.

So let's see. Last time I talked about the issue I was having with my friend. Well she's transgender too male-to-female. I don't want to get too much into it. But basically, I told her I loved her, and did not get the same feeling back. She is the kind of person I could spend the rest of my life with, but to her, I'm more of just a good friend. Which is good because we are still friends and we still talk to each other just about everyday (As long as she doesn't lose her Ipod lol). So yeah that's pretty much been that. Reason I didn't blog about it is because I didn't want to bring any negative attention to her. And now, it's been awhile so I can't even recall many of the details. I just know I cried that night and I felt so heartbroken. But things are better now. 

Lastly here, I got bored one day and created an amazon wishlist. However, since I don't get hardly anyone on here to comment on my posts, I'm not going to share the list on here until I get someone to comment lol. But there is a lot of cute things there, and I have tried to keep everything fairly affordable. Then again, I'm not here to beg people to buy me things. Personally, I feel terrible when people buy me things. I know they are just doing it out of the goodness of their heart, but it makes me feel worthless. So if I do end up sharing the list, it is primarily only to view.

So I guess that's it for today folks lol. Some things might happen this upcoming week, or they might not. I haven't a clue. But my next therapy is Monday the 5th, so look for a therapy blog to be up sometime around then :) And now, I leave you all with this! Love you all!